Monday, July 30, 2012

Count your virtue

It is understood that human beings are looking for better opportunities that may be present before them, but can we simply ignore the responsibilities to those whom we owe? While we enjoy the lavish lifestyle we earn from our own hard work, there are people along the sidelines that made it happened for us. I cannot begin to count cards who they are, but I'll be lying if I say there are none. Sometimes, you heart wants something. Something for yourself. But can you really tell me you earned that certain something? Either way you look at it, I'd say no. It is one thing to achieve something and another to want something. I cannot close my eyes and pretend my mere success is already something. I do not want to run away from this sheer responsibilities of what I've agreed upon. Mainly because I think I hold accountable to them and on a lighter note, it is my conscience. It is telling me what to do, the right thing. Nevertheless, we are human beings. The need to be selfish at times is compelling and attractive. Intelligence do come into play, but we are foolish ourselves when it comes to "grass is always greener on the other side". We are blinded by it, let alone to submerge our minds into thinking "this is for the better". 

That is why I have a second opinion on things. For once, I can agree to the notion of selfishness is necessary. It is not to grab opportunities from others, but merely to escape from something that may drag you into something you do not approve. While being grateful to those you owe is a good deed, you must always look after yourself. In the end of the day, you only have yourself to depend on while others may want to chew you up. I like to see things from different angles and talking to people sure gave me different perspectives and outlooks on things. 

All I can say is, keep your conscience up tight but do not forget to look up front. 

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Ramadhan and all its blessing

Salam Ramadhan to all. Who knew one year can pass us by so very fast? A year ago, I was in a small hotel room in Ho Chi Minh City, trying to figure out how Ramadhan will be for me. Terawikh was easy cause the mosque is just a few minutes walk from my hotel. I sort of refrain myself from wearing telekung from the hotel like we all would do in Malaysia, just to save me from stares from the locals. My break fast was mainly around Dond Du St where most of the halal restaurants are. Well, I bet you know the feeling when after awhile all this can get pretty boring and not to mention I looked pretty sad eating there all alone. So, I packed the food and ate in my room, turned on Skype and video chat with my beau. Then, I spent most of my time reading the Quran. Although I didn't manage to finish it, but I still think I did good.

And a year from all that, I'm now in Kuantan on day 1 of Ramadhan. I never felt so much blessed to be back. Apart from the abundant food I get to buy at bazaar Ramadhan near the stadium, mom is making ikan patin masak tempoyak and sambal udang! Hehe. Nevertheless, I'm still wondering how this Ramadhan will make any difference to me like it did last year. Somehow when I'm all alone and not tight to any Ramadhan-social-events, I accomplish more. 

Hmm, one thing I know is I want to cook and eat home all the time. After spending two weeks abroad, eating food that has french fries on the side all the time, I'm craving for home cook meal. Yeay!

Buffalo steak sandwich in Paris. See what I meant? Urgh, more home cook food s'il vous plait?