Tuesday, October 30, 2007
and i said: but it happened to me too.
and so, it happened to us both
and cos of that we both ought to be MAD~!!
let me ask u:
how would u feel, if someone who looks so nice, comes and sits next to u in an exam to later copy u throughout the WHOLE exam?? dead angry i assume.
and yes! i am angry
there is a gap between me n izyan. one empty chair on my right and on izyan's left. and so, it was left vacant until few minutes before exam starts, somebody decided to sit next to us. she came and smiled at me and said "salam". i just smiled n replied her salam. and so the exam started.
after that few minutes, i started to feel like somebody is looking at me. and it was from my right! omo...i was like "is she trying to copy me?" but i wasnt so sure. and so i pull myself back a little bit and AHA!! damn i was right. she was looking at my paper! i was like....hello...we are not even writing the same paper. why would u copy me? doesnt make any sense or whutsoever. unless u want to find where my question 10 is on ur paper. and in this case...she is willing to do so!! i was staring right to the prof, hoping he will see this "crime". but unfortunately, he didnt notice. i
i did soo many things to hide my answer. even moving my bottle to hide it. but still she could find her way to glance at my paper. and then i used my left hand to write just so that i can use my WHOLE body to block her view. and i dont know if she can see it cos i *obviously* cant see her. darn i was mad. tak focus beb.
then it was all over. i told izyan...i think she copied me. izyan said: SHE COPIED ME TOO!! i was like omo!! ape kes ni!! and we were generating so many theories as to why she chose to first sat next to us and later have the guts to actually copy us. we thought: she thinks we are sedare sesame Islam and so we ought to "help" her with her exam. i bet if she sits next to some mat salleh, she wouldnt even dare to even say hi. omo!! and the worst part is: she is a MOTHER!!!
i knew this fact cos few weeks ago, when we had to do our lab assignment for geography, she approached izyan and told izyan her sad story and how she wants izyan TO DO the assigment for her. she said: just write for me few sentences for the introduction. like hey!! ape kess. then she told izzy that she just gave birth, and so she missed all the classes and now she doesnt know how to do the whole thing. izzy slamba je ckp: then u should go to the prof. let him explain to u. but she refuses. and starts saying, u Islam, i pon Islam...i was like, that is not an excuse for u to ask somebody else to do ur work. we dont even know u. and yea, i'm a bit upset cos she's a mom, i know motherhood is tough, but there are other options like to postpone ur study, take a leave for a year or whutever. there is always a way out of everything. u just have to find it. later, i think she asked the prof what to do. so Bingo!
and just as she wants to leave the room, she asked izzy: so did u hand in ur lab? izyan who was still doing her exam just put her finger to her lips indicating: im in an exam. which is the right thing to do. so she said: see u outside. woooo...which izyan tak pergi jumpe pon. wahh that's the whole story. i dont know what u think. but to me, it's so inappropriate. to come and just copy other people. i studied like freaking hard for this exam. and i had another in the afternoon. so basically my head was literally exploding with datas bout rocks and cultures and map and so forth. tetibe, dtg somebody tak study ape2, and just sit back and "enjoy the ride". sorry im still upset.
oh i dont know if im over-reacted by writing this all out......
Sunday, October 28, 2007
i deleted the last post cos i sounded too emotional. and since i dont want to be one anymore (at least im trying not to)....i deleted the post.
arhhhhhh...today was a happy day~!!
done with all the readings for geography. but, i still need to revise them later this monday. and yea, had a great time talking to my friend. yey....we havent talk on the phone (or mic in this case) for almost 2 weeks. and darn we have a lot to talk about. dari meja berpindah ke baring2 hahaha.
tahu kan, what kinda stories i've been watching lately?? it's gol n gincu 2 and gossip girl.
humm all the gedik girls story. so i was thinking: do i fall into this category as well?? haha
and so i feel like trying out: heheh if i want something, will he make it happen for me? and of course, the real test utk gedik is: what DO i do to make sure die buat juga, no matter what it takes! kalau korang paham laa challenge ni. end result: im gedik. i can tell. if u r reading this, itu was for fun. u know u tak leh bace blog i~ adeihh teringat kat dan yg akan buat ape2 pon utk serena. huhu sweet~!!
forget the fun part, when actually this is how i feel right now
somehow, i kinda feel im pushing u away from me. i dunno if this is just my thoughts or u r feeling the same way too. but im sorry if u do. tp i dont wish to say all the things i said :)
i think by now, u've figured out that i'm like that, but i dont mean it.. it's just my nature i think. but yea, i just ckp whatever i feel like saying. i dont normally filter things coming out of my mouth hehehehe...hahahaha. i think mcm takde laa kes laser jet printer (quote kak eyna)
lalala...tgh pakai tshirt alberta ni .... bangge tak cik ainil + arep gemm.... hahaha u r still my arep gemm walaupon dah kurus skit...
aduiii kain yg dilipat perlu dikembalikan ke station masing2!! i have lots of clothes....i know....
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Pertama sekali, saye ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri dan Maaf Zahir Batin buat semua. Saye sedar saye blom wish lagi kat blog. (baru perasan)
Anyways, as most of u dah tahu.....kitorang buat open house smlm. finally, i got a taste of hari raya. and tell u...it taste good. ahahaha. had few people coming...kak unda and family, kak azia dan family, agung gedik and aunty lina.
I was so busy preparing for the night. from the morning till at night....i didnt stop and rest. i was standing most of the time!! blimey,....... later at night dah sakit kaki. since kitorang busy sgt, siap makan kat cafe hostel depan london hall. huhu then curi sudu. sebab kat kedai dah takde. korup je. nasib baik so many stuff for party can be found di dollarama. we made a mistake of buyinh the paper plates etc kat loblaws. damn. hahaha and i think in total we both spent less than CAD100 for this!! omo...................murah giler
and u know what, since kami ni student...mane laa ade bekas2 menghidang. so smlm kak azia once again came to the rescue!! die telah mengeluarkan set2 buffet die yg grand itu...and we got to use them first! and die siap sponsor ayam. i was like...err....we are supposed to pay for this party, tp tak jugak....omg, she's totally our angel here.
guess what i started cooking n stuff around 2pm. i dont even know where to start! last2 dah establish some work style lol ...masing2 ade tugas sendiri. i was in charge for the soup, and chicken. izyan sayur. then take turn goreng mee. which my recipe cmpur izyan's = mihun big hit! hahaha then byk laa lagi...tp mmg tak menang tgn...patut 3 org. baru best.
then smbil chicken wing tgh masak.....get ready. tp kak unda telah smpai awal. tak pakai bj kurung lagi. tp pakai sweater amik mereka!! korupppp..... and kak unda kene handle semua appetizer while saye get ready..omo...soo terukk. and when i finally did look good n stuff... :P kluar to see chicken wing dan sikit...and ade lagi satu appetizer...sudah habes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omo....tak smpat pon nak makan. adehhh...padahal ade 30 bijik tuh. hahaha big hit. ppl were asking me mane beli chicken wing. ade tuh ckp: ape sos pakai....hahaha i was like: everything is in one box. haha. and si kecik fussy hassan suke giler chicken wing tu that die merajuk tahap dasyat giler bile wing dah habes. comel je. then i made him lagi...naseb ade lagi stock. siap die kira2 and berebut ngan jamel. adoiii klaka laa kanak2 ni.
aunty lina smpai lambat skit cos die keje. n bile die smpai....omo........byk giler makanan die bwk. cheese cake, 2 big boxes of choc truffle and belgian choc!!!!!!!!!!! i love u so much aunty. she was like: korang nak ape, aunty beli kat costco ni. aduii...comel je. dah la tak habes2 puji our cooking. siap nak masuk minang lagi. hahahha klakar.
and kak unda bw some dessert too and helped us with the dishes. mcm alamak....aunty ni lak yg basuh pinggan. but the best part is kak unda n mila love the bracelet that i bought for them. beli kat sabah hari tu. crystal n pearl. and just as i thought, the colour matches each one of them perfectly.
ni dah letih dah...but all i can say, i love yesterday!! walaupon bilik ku di lepaki oleh kanak2 kerana nak main internet...and said: ur computer is so slow!. ahahaha ye ye kanak2. mmg slow...
Mr Bryan: dont encourage mila....hahaha yea, i can see she wants to be one of the dateenz too!!
cik intan payung farisa, cik mila n aunty lina!!
kak azia, me and kak unda
dah sah takde keje
we invaded the elevator....at 12am hahaha it was kinda spooky
Thursday, October 18, 2007
i kinda feel the "burden" of planning the whole thing. i dont remember the last time my house had open house. i think that was back when i was 13. and all did then was susun stuff on the table.
and now i have to plan from A to Z. termasuklahh nak pinjam pinggan mangkuk dr aunty2. btw, kitorang just jemput aunty2 dan famili mereka and termasuk si gedik Agung. hahaha
and we planned to have chicken wings, sandwiches and quiches for appetizers. as for entrees we are making nasi ayam n mihun goreng. i know i know, mane ade org makan nasi ayam for hari raya. huhu i just missed nasi ayam. and since we used to make it, so i figure it would be easy then. as for dessert, aunty2 tu nak sponsor. kalau dah student....aunty2 pon kesian kat kami. offer mcm2 nak tolong. nak bw ni, bw tuh. which is so nice of them. terharu betul. tp yea, itu mmg nature mereka semua. hehe. and kak azia nak sponsor air. baguss skali~!!
oh i cant wait for tomorrow. bleh pakai lawa2....hehe...tp kene masuk dapur. tgh dgr lagu raya ni. sweettttttttttt~!!! will show u the pics later babes.............
btw, it is pronounced as "kish" weird huh.... they look good arent they....sok baru nak pegi beli. hehe..dlm kotak je
Sunday, October 14, 2007
i was having a terrible night last night.
and when i woke up, my eyes were soooo dry that i cant hardly open it. yea i felt so bad for putting this onto myself. lol :P
yes, yesterday was horrible, but i'm not going to make today worst huh. so i kinda think: what are the things that normally make me happy?? lol they are just the simple things
like curling my hair, eating ice cream without saying darn, that blows my diet, looking at pics and most definitely talking to friends. so, i did all these. and im now very happy.
so i guess, when u r sad...copy me...
and just now, i finally got the curls that i want. it's perfect!! hehehe. ignore this part if u r a guy. u wont understand why i curled my hair eventhough i cant show them to u guys. it's just for personal satisfaction and i freaking dont care it took me quite a long time to curl each section.
and i dont realli like straigtening. hahahaha.
oh i miss my dear friend. i wish i could talk to u... YM is always a bummer when we finally get to talk to each other. and it doesnt come so often!! YM...sila baiki operasi anda. kami memerlukannya....
and so, im putting up few pics from yesterday's fieldtrip... and i need to get some pics from izyan too.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
as i got to know that i will be going on a fieldtrip this syawal, i smell "this is nothing compare to last yr", but today it proves me wrong. cos i never ever felt so bad ever in my entire life. huh.
however, i'm not blaming the fieldtrip. but other stuff.
especially people who DO NOT respect TIME~
im freaking pissed off with these people. no matter who they are. u just have to be punctual. cos of this, im now sitting on my bed, writing this stupid story about ppl not being punctual instead of going to kak unda house for hari raya.
i bought a pair of new shoes yesterday just for this trip. and also a jacket which cost my parents rm600. hah. sounds stupid eh. everything just to prepare for this trip. but hey....that is all for waste cos some ppl turn up with just their running shoes. that sent me shouting in the morning.
regardless of that, it is still not the fault of the shoes or the jacket. but it's the people!!
i guess im just so sad cos i was hoping this yr would be a better year. cos i get to know nice ppl and can celebrate hari raya. everything was supposed to go on plan.
friday: semayang raya, balik studi....
saturday: fieldtrip, balik...pegi enjoy.
i studied hard last night cos i know i will be spending most of my TIME doing other things. it actually took more TIME to get to that place than to actualli spend TIME looking at the rocks there. im just mad. i studied physics in the car...see how desperate i was????
and now im hungry, but i dont want to cook cos that will take most of my TIME. and plus im expecting to eat something good. not nasi goreng smlm. and yea, i need a friend to talk to too. but they are all occupied with raya kenduri and stuff. and i dont want to spoil their mood with my stupid story
so this yr, no raya pics. period~!! unless im in a freaking good mood to have a "photoshoot" later tonite...
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
i guess im very sensitive right now cos i was just having a thought, and that thought got me very overwhelmed... but it's nothing serious pon. i just hate when i think of sumthing so hard till i feel like bursting it all. practically, it just doesnt make any sense....
so happen ayish IMed me on YM. maka he has to listen to it all. and i did cry. *agak kekanakan*
bla bla bla.
he comforts me. and now i feel a lot better
and he said few very sweet things. i cant believe he said that :)
he said: if u need somebody to talk to, u can always come to me. u are always in my heart u know. and nobody can change that.
isnt that sweet or what? he is such a good friend.
and i need more people like him, not that i dont have any now...but the more, the merrier. hahaha. maybe i should say sweet things to people too.
Monday, October 8, 2007
...my good old diary
...my computer when i feel like saving my pen and later print it out
and lately, i've been so focused only on my blog. which is not fair for my other "writing medium"
and so i opened up my diary to write a few things in it.
i got that book in 1997 for hadiah kecemerlangan. agak lame hadiah yg my school beri. but my school had some deal with some bank to open up a bank account for kanak2 yg dpt hadiah, so they can bank in the money instead of giving us cold hard cash!! pandai seyhh sekolah assunta ni!!
yea, but i didnt use that book until 1999. i was looking at the stuff i wrote in the diary since i was 12. hehe. guess whut?? i sounded sooo childish back then. makan koko crunch pon tulis!! OMG!!
i can see how my writing skills developed. daripada ayat2 short and simple, i can now write a more complicated sentence. plus u can see that my handwriting pon berubah!! i think around the age of 14 or 15 that finally decided on my "official" handwriting which is cursive. lol :P konon matang la skit. laju skit bile smbung2.
i have so many things in that big book! from the big thing to the smallest thing like list of all the possible signatures before i finally choose one. and it's the one im using now.
aahhh...it's nice to read old stories and im pretty much happy that i wrote down everything that is important...or maybe not important pon :)
pastu saye terjumpe satu surat which i wrote in 1999. dan surat itu distaplekan pada one of the pages. pada surat itu tertulis: bace surat ini pada 26/12/2009. which is 10 yrs from the day i wrote the letter. seriously tak perasan that it has been 8 yrs since i wrote the letter. now im patiently waiting for another 2 yrs to read it. i cant imagine ape yg i wrote in it. i know it was in ramadhan. and so it has got to do with some ramadhan story! i told izyan the other day bout this, she was: omg, sabar giler. kalau saye dah bukak lama dah. haha, i guess i am a very patient person. :D
and the rest would be a secret.... :P
Saturday, October 6, 2007
im in LoVe with song!!
"these open arms will wait for u
these open arms can pull us through"
omg, i just finished watching ugly betty. i actualli cried watching the scene where justin got to know his dad was shot at the store he was in at that moment. tah kenape i was soo touched and infact, i think im getting more and more sensitive each day. humm....
i was talking to izyan smlm, ape betul ke im now more sensitive?? i mean, in the past, saye tak kisah if sumbody did sumthing to me or even try to make me jealous or mad or irritate me to death. saye tak kisah if sumbody i care would go out with somebody else without even telling me. i just tak kisah. people were talking about me and i dont care too!! i was dead insensitive dulu.
however, i find myself to be more sensitive now. i dont know if this is some process of growing up or is this a maturation process...cos if it is, it's just too weird for me. i dont want to tetibe look so sensitive on even small matter. i dont want to be stamped as some "childish adult". i do find myself to be all over the top over small issue. maybe im just protecting things that are mine, if u know whut i mean. but, is that an ample reason for me to be the way i am now. humm i cant make myself clear without giving out an example, but sorry cant point out an example here without mentioning names. and that would be bad cos i have to mention somebody's name without his/her consent.
i was asking izyan: kenape buleh jadi mcm ni? i guess we are now all grown ups, and it is some kinda growth in terms of emotions. cos i THINK being sensitive is a characteristic of an adult kot??? cos if u r not sensitive to what u want AND also to the people around u, then u are still a kid, i guess. sorry this is just my opinion. im not saying im right. cos i find that this can push u further without being hurt or hurting others. HOWEVER, im in the condition of overly done it. hahaha. over sensitive is bad too.
then our conversation masih lagi bersambung antara izyan n saye. ye laa....dlm bas balik dr mall. nak buat ape lagi kalau tak bercerita. hahaa. she was telling me some story laa about some folks. somehow dgr from her story. i was kinda reflecting the story on me.
is it worth to kejar sumthing u are not certain of in the end? i mean, u think it is worth to go for it AT THIS MOMENT, but will it be worth the same in the future?? or am i just trying to please myself now that im not thinking ahead...?
err, im trying not to make myself confuse now. cos whut if u try so hard for it but in the end, u cant even touch it, apetah lagi grasping it. u think u might get it, but actually that's just ur thoughts. the realiti is far from whut u expect it to be. and now im afraid. im scared that what if im chasing for the wrong thing in life. cos if i am, i better stop. how can u ever tell huh?? like things are going well and nice and sweetr and stuff, but suddenly, without notice, without any warnings, things stop being so. im sure to be in tremendous shock and pasti ade failure dlm emosi.
so, im thinking of stopping all these good things before who knows it can turn bad? cos ntah2 im hoping for the wrong thing. baik i backed out huh. cos moving on is always an option too.
BUT, i just cant help to think, whut if, it is worthwhile...
i need to decide things for myself.
now dgr lagu "red dress" by sugarbabes. i feel HOT !! haha
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
saye dan izyan telah bersetuju utk tidak menunjukkan pic itu kepada sesape pon. errr, tapi kalau dah name farisa, die tunjuk gak. tp hanya pd si bolat fadia. dgn harapan, beri kamu suspen. hahahaha. over seyyhhh mcm org nak sgt tgk muka die.
another gamba tak jadi. cos tak symmetry. plus izyan kate i was standing
mcm rock kapak ape tah.
another pic that could have been sent. tapi izyan kater tangan die
mcm nyanyi nasyid. cancel....
time for korup pose
tak baik izyan gelak kat org....this pic is totally a candid shot
izyan actualli kasi letak pic ni. haha
izyan mmg sayang saye. u know whut i hate bout this pic?
cos izyan have to bend her knees
not knowing there is another camera....
love u guys...muaxhh...terima kasih ler tolong amikkan gamba
though it was 12C outside.
Monday, October 1, 2007
anyways, i had my lab exam just now. ape lagi kalau bukan earth science babe. i love this lab cos i -obviously- love the content of it. we are studying sediment n stratigraphic. interesting.. the thing is, to prepare for this exam, i dont need to strain my head with all inputs/facts n stuff. basically i just need to understand how things are happening and that's it. u can do well. errr that was also the reason why i can talk to my friend for more than 2hrs tanpa rase "aku perlu studi". hahaa
sumhow, since ppl are soo shallow bout what geology is, so i want to write bout it. in particular, what i have to do in the lab just now just to give the big picture. hahaha. pasni sape kate geology sucks or said: "u r taking earth science farisa? that is so boring" kene la ketuk skit. kasik appreciation skit to our mother Earth
what i have to was to describe few rocks of my interest. and this time, we were given rocks from 5 environments : fluvial, delta, lagoon, coral reef and marine basin. well each rock have their distinct characteristics to show they belong to which environment. for example; if i see something like fossils in the rock...it can be coral reef envi or lagoon. i have to then analyse the fossil to determine which specific environment it belongs to. or maybe nampak kaler hitam je batu tu. sah die shale, which would mean it is from marine basin. senang kan?? takyah hafal any hard or tedious formula or ape2 equation. hehe
then once we got to know the characteristics of rocks, we place them dlm some cross section. we got 5 logs to put in the time frame. then i have to correlate each log to one another. log ni mcm keratan rentas tu laa.. satu line of keratan rentas dari sedalam mana nak to the surface. pastu dah siap correlate, i have to come out with a story as to what has happened to this place. interesting huh ?? so kene lukis2. which i love so much. lukis pon ape je. pantai, swamp, volcano etc... then dah come out with cerita tuh...siap lahh leh hanta. mudah. and to make things sound more interesting, i am looking at things that were alive millions of years ago. org lain mane ade that same chance. lol :P well unless pegi museum ke ape. so i'm predicting what was happening on Earth million of years ago..be it volcano eruption, ocean level increases, or ice age (nanti baru blaja) etc tgk fossil of organisms yg dahh berjuta tahun pupus.
i think that is cool. i dont know bout u. im just too curious as to was happening down there, bwh earth's crust. and what Earth has gone true. haha, mcm true environmentalist kan. lol :P and it was never bout the money. i never told anyone before why i wanted to be a geologist. i guess my dad nye paksaan tgk cerita national geographic dulu betul2 dah absorbed. cos i never liked when they were showing bout animals. but kalau sal earth nye stuff.. i will the one depan tv sorang, and my dad laa skali if he's around. then dipaksa pegi jungle trekking like giler ar. so i was pondering ape yg actualli berlaku di sini. so that's how the interest got into me. i think my dad was just trying to make us tough. tp care for nature punye attitude tu maybe tujuan juge laa, tp takde lahh suruh jadi geologist. haha, im tough and now that im going to be a geologist, i have to be even tougher. lol :P i guess ni satu my dad nye "paksaan" menjadi. cycling nye paksaan, boleh laa skit2. jogging nye paksaan pon jadi gak...tp mende2 lain...sorry daddy..we just dont get along.
have i drawn enough of ur attention to what i will be doing for living?? lol
no matter what we do, make sure it is out of interest kan??
baru beli national geographic mag tadi. huhu...ade ke die ckp sal malacca nye pirate...haaa kan dah ckp hari tuuhhh... korang bace tak??? tak fokus lahhh