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Can one ever be tired of being independent? Resting everything on one's shoulder and taking all the pain to oneself with much caution. Maybe one can call it a quit. And for once, let someone in. Cause what is the meaning of happiness if you stand there all alone with a stranger taking your photo.

p/s: I close my eyes and pray (Justin Bieber, Pray). Love this song.

heartbeats

your heart may be beating fast for many reasons. for me, it's 'cause of coffee.

but today, i feel scared of something. overwhelmed by it. i guess this is when i should start pay extra attention to it. the fine details make a great piece of art, so start to look closely at them!

i'm trying to put aside what's around me that do not matter and see only at the things that is worth it, for now. like someone said to me before, takut yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran. i applied it here. so, focus la weyy! hehe

p/s: wish to go back to NYC. i so belong there.

Up for grabs.

Here

My kind of way has always been to keep calm and carry on. Maybe George Bernard Shaw was right after all. Gaining my heart's desire was a tragedy that I kept myself up for a promise that looped in a circle and ended at where it started. But tragedy in its way is no Macbeth or King Lear. It's a fallen persona that evokes consciousness before a downfall. And that pain and suffering one had to endure are the constant conviction of faith, the kind one hopes to keep on believing in. No surprise. Be careful, faith can be a trap or the rope for you to hang on to. There is, of course, a choice.

I will be fine. It is a decision I made regardless of the consequences, which if I may add, are not severe. Two people do get to be together without any labels attached cause for all I know the only label I want is "a friend".

p/s: I should get this poster the next time I see it. I like it pink :)

Be young

2006. I still look like this now. Maybe I know how to smile better.

OK. Now I know why some say I still look like a student although I'm a corporate person now. Damn. Some people are not meant to grow up. That much I know. Thanks to those who think I am that young. Haha.

p/s: post ni saje sbb dah stress orang slalu ingat i'm a student; thus, they have that thing on the face that sort of say "can i take her seriously."

TV show

You don't see my passion until you stand/sit to listen me talk about Survivor.

An addict, that's what I am.

p/s:

Survivor: Cook Island was by far the best season.

Harapan

Does this hope have a shape?

A circle?

One that starts at a point and goes on to end up at the same starting point?

But where is your starting point? Only in the end to call it the finish point?

Arthur Miller once wrote, maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets.

Is your finish point your right regrets?

p/s: a circle has no edges

Volare!

So, it's January. And that means a few friends, who are studying in overseas, just got back from their winter break vacation! And that is a cause for green with envy in me. Haha. I just got back from a meeting in Johor Bahru a few hours ago. While I'm out for a business trip, I get to collect airmiles points as well. Hehe. For the last 4 weeks, I've been a regular at KLIA. I flew in and out of KL almost every week. Urghh! And at times, I didn't get to unpack my bags even. Just took out some clothes, put in new ones and just leave the toiletries etc in my backpack. If I can say something about the frequency of me flying here and there, I'd say it's okay. I'm 23 with no major responsibilities. Maybe only this time around I get to be selfish and just live life like it's meant to be. Who knows along the way, I'll meet with a lot of interesting people. And that is always the case when I go around. Business card? Checked!

While my traveling days as a student are long time over, I guess this new kind of traveling is not so bad afterall. We still get to hang out and pusing2 a little bit with my working colleague, but the mood is entirely different. This is the time to hear their stories, their experience and some "gossips". Hehe. I mean, you don't get to really know a person at work 'cause you gotta keep it "professional". We hang out at Danga Bay on our first night in JB and that was fun. Heard lots of stories, discussed lots of things and enjoyed an awesome live performance! Humff. Then, meeting, makan, meeting lagi and makan lagi. We had an impromptu rig visit after the meeting. It was great visit, mainly cause we get to take pictures everywhere without any worry that the flash may be a cause of ignition; thus, start a fire. FYI, I need a permit to take pictures on the rig. And don't dream to take pictures of everything on the rig when drilling commences. See, why I say it's great? :) I can't imagine I'll be living on that rig in a few weeks time! I'm so excited. So far, people are looking great on the rig. But typical boys, they'll get excited when they see girls onboard.

Izzy and I kept remisnicing Orlando while we were in JB. Maybe because Universal Studio is just a swim away :p

Ok, my mafias decided to go to Bukit Tinggi tomorrow. Hehe. Berjalan-jalan lagi :)

p/s: Bace Going Places pon dah bosan :(