Feel this

this is the title of the song i'm currently listening to on my freaking new iPod touch! haha. i'm pretty psyhed with it! lolz. and i gotta make a correction, i do have to pay tax for this iPod, it just said in the email, but not when i paid for it. bummer. damn i hate canada for its tax!

"Feel this
Can you feel this
My heart beating out of my chest
Feel thisCan you feel this
Salvation, under my breath"

in the coming weeks, let me bet on one thing, we will all be pretty much damned. this is all thanks to the upcoming final exam. i can already feel the intensity. i have not start anything yet....and i'm scared. i'm quite behind in many courses....and i have to "thank" GIS for that. GIS took away my whole weekend! it's just cause there is a probability of a pop quiz on monday, so, i have no choice but to study. let alone, this gives no time for me to study for other courses. luckily i took 4 courses this semester, so i can actually breathe a little bit. i know most of us are in the stress mode now, but i must say...dont be. exam is one thing, but stressing out? nah, not worth it. i just wanna to try to relax and just go with the flow. i dont plan out my itinerary for everyday, that's just to remind me, but in the end of the day, i just do what i want.

however, this might sound contradicting from i said above...but, i get stress out by one particular thing. stress and annoyed! but more to the annoyed part. and this has nothing to do with school but it is about a person. serious budak ni me"stress"kan saye...and org lain skali, i think. konsep i dont know ini mineral ape dah tak patut wujud di dalam kamus anda kerana anda sudah tahun keempat. k fine, i pon lupa most of the mineral....but how quartz, plagioclase looked like dlm batu adelah unacceptable!

saye tahu die kawan saye, tp saye tak suke die terlalu bergantung kepada saya dlm hampir SEMUA perkara. semua hal peribadi die pon nak bagitau dan sibuk tanye my point of view which saye pada asalnye tak kisah pon utk berikan. tp asyik bangkang semua yg saye ckp: sy pon malas lerr nak layan enkau dahh. i know some ppl have their own view on some issues, and who am i to say it's wrong, but it gets very annoying if ur p.o.v is absolutely absurd and i feel the need to correct it.

berbalek kpd issue bergantungan. saye suke keje alone, kalau bukan alone, keje in pairs or trios. tp keje pon bincang bukan terus tanye jawapan kawan saye. kite ckp laa ape kite fikir, then kite bincang. tp saye mmg pantang kalau org terus tanye jawapan and tiada usaha sendiri dahulu. masa fieldtrip hari tu pon, kami je yg buat peta n all...die tiru ape kami ckp (ape tgh bincang)...tak bother pon nak tanye nape kami fikir gitu or like at least, tanye laa explanation kalau tak paham. ni tiru je. dan saye tak suke konsep saye tgh tulis, die buleh pegi alih tangan saye utk tgk ape saye tulis....ape kejadah....and, org tgh work on one question, lets say question 2 on page 2....jgn laa tetibe dtg (dari meja lain) dan terus flip muka surat lain. double ape kejadah. dah laa tanye soalan org tak buat....ape kejadah lagi. damn smlm hot giler diri ini. itu ade lah my added stress...tidak melampau utk saye katakan: saye nak ignore die dah pasni. biar lahh saye nmpak jahat or kuang ajar ke ape ke...eden tak rase kehilangan pon kalau die tak kawan ngan saye. haaa, jahat tak jahat...
plus die dah buat kenyataan ini:

"saye tak yah pon amik geology ni, so saye tak yah laa berusaha sekeras korang"

that is bull-schist!
dah takyah amik, buat pe amik! the way die ckp tu, mmg laa nada joke, tp the bitterness of those words go straight to my heart. it's like, korang berusaha keras ah, cos die tahu kitorang kene maintain some average....pastu aku tiru ar. tak paham tanye je...tak yah berusaha pon sebab korang mesti tahu jawapan. ade esemen minggu depan kene hanta, die dah call byk2 kali ajak buat same2. yea right, saye nak buat sndiri. if die call, saye dah nak honest ngan die and ckp awak buat sndiri supaya awak tahu sndiri utk final nanti. itu sy nak ckp...if die call laa...

tp, ape korang rase? ni baru sebahagian stress yg diberikan oleh 1 insan kepada saye.
damn i hope i dont look evil with my decision.
hah. it is the righteous thing to do.

dah arhhh nanti korang sama stress.